In ever memory of physical betrayal and every second of dislike of my illness, I am still intrigued by its complexities and continue to care for all its nuts and bolts.Read More
We each tailor our own agenda on how best to adapt should this risk materialise, and in my view, the final outcome is achieved by writing, for the story writes itself, as if I am just a mere spectator while paper accepts the narrative of the illness.Read More
If sound intolerance were a 2005 Marks & Spencer food porn ad, people would refer to it like this: “This is not just sensitivity, this is a hyperacusis noise sensitivity.”Read More
”Despite having my inner dialogue running into philosophical mayhem, I’ve been trying hardest to get things on paper. Sometimes it is rather difficult to grasp how unspeakably quick, indelible and distracting multiple sclerosis can become, only to disappear for a few hours before returning. As such, parameters on what I perceived to be acceptable have been reset, and my inner dialogue needs a fix as an intuitively sharp anguish took over my mindset last week.Read More
Imagine standing all dolled up at the front door, excited to go to the film you’ve been dying to see. That doesn’t do it for you? Replace ‘the film’ by ‘finally buying the boots you’ve been waiting for’ or by ‘rushing out to buy a new power tool’ to finally set up new furniture.Read More
Sacrificing your life for a chronic illness never comes easily. You learn to compensate and decide how reliable your judgment is based on what you can put in physically, mentally and emotionally. Quite often, what lies within you is mentally infinitely stronger than anyone might realise – even yourself – because, until that point in time, you have been at your worst already.Read More
“What’s wrong with my brain?” doesn’t automatically mean, “Is my mind, my soul therefore broken as well?”Read More
It is hard to explain the following depth of reality. One morning shortly after my diagnosis, I woke up and thought, “From now on, I will wake up sick every day, and I need to accept that I will never get better again – unless a cure is found.”
That level of new normals isn’t easy. Then again, finding something black to wear while standing in front of a wardrobe filled with black clothes only, isn’t either. The same goes for the many pairs of black shoes, black rings, and necklaces.Read More
Trigeminal neuralgia feels like a vicious affair, and it is still hard to know who came first, TN or MS. Being a lover of Shakespearean drama, they would tell you they arrived around the same time.Read More
Perhaps losing my only sibling over a decade ago recreated the perspective on life I once held. It poured resilience into a mind that required to be strengthened for the many years ahead. Hope became the antidote to being tired of always being sick and tired.Read More
Some days I go through life like a half-baked version of Cinderella. There’s promise at 8 AM, but by 11 AM my fairytale book is closed until further notice. In the background, that all-important clock keeps ticking forward, but my body is in a rut: sleeping, eating, exercising, resting, more eating, more sleeping and back again. And […]Read More
When physical restraints curb your potential, you realise that you want so more from your life. Life is moving forward outside your medically induced world, and you feel annoyed when healthy people don’t realise the worth of their bodies, their unused potential.Read More
Research shows that MS-related anxiety usually happens shortly after being diagnosed, while some doubt it does not result from the physical process of MS itself.
Not so fast, buster!
I begged to differ.Read More
Have you ever wondered, “What exactly is my purpose on our little shining blue ball floating around in our vast universe?” Have you? Congratulations, so have I! It took me the better part of my teenage years to get to the stage where I thought, “Yes! Eureka! Yes, I found out what I am doing […]Read More
Highlight still on American Healthcare Act, the replacement plan for the Patient Protection and Affordable Care Act (ACA) released by Congress on March 6, 2017 Society Releases Statement on American Health Care Act National MS Society Urges Lawmakers to Oppose American Health Care Act Reducing Out-of-Pocket Cost Barriers to Specialty Drug Use Under Medicare Part […]Read More
Over the years, many extraordinary, inspiring people with disabilities have shown how they have rocked the world in their unique way. What the likes of Trump might regard as incompetence, I have seen extremely able, courageous people who have raised the bar not only for themselves but for others as well. They are living proof that having a disability is not the end of the road. There is, in fact, a whole world ahead of you. It might be good to remember these strong words from Michelle Obama, “When they go low, we go high.”Read More
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“Following that, I hit writer’s block faster than you can say ‘ABC’. That writer’s block has reached the ‘XYZ’ stage, so I’m nearing a muse that sounds, tastes and smells like coffee.
Where I am funnily always full of ideas.
Away from notebooks and pens, I scrapped another item from my bucket list in September.”Read More
October has finally arrived, which means that the 4th International Trigeminal Neuralgia Awareness Day is almost upon us. On October 7th the Light Up Teal campaign will see buildings across the world light up in a teal hue, with many buildings in Ireland joining the awareness campaign. So far, confirmation of 34 structures has been received, including […]Read More
“Is life with MS that comfortable, then? God, no. Absolutely not. You just have to learn how to live with it. Somehow I found a way to tap goodness from those negative connotations because I listened to its actual narrative by refusing to make a mountain out of a molehill. So, even when facial pain is also called “the suicide disease”, even when MS fatigue can knock me senseless in less than five minutes, and even when I feel awful inside despite not looking sick, I am just cool with the whole lot because there simply is no other way.”Read More