Older, and dafter too!

25596wallfAnother year older today, and another year dafter too.

Kookier.

Most definitely away with the faeries.

Never one to take myself too seriously unless needed, I am taking my new number in my stride. Having family and friends I love and who in return, seem to like me enough to give me a place in their own busy lives, is all I need to know.

Asked how I ended up in Dublin, celebrating my birthday in Ireland for a 13th consecutive year, is a recurring question. The answer? The bonkers idea since age 15ish, that life in Ireland was ‘it’, a dream so titanic in size I was afraid it might never work out.

So, am I where and what I wanted to be as a teen? I sure am.

Library assistant: check.

Counsellor: check.

A vision of living life in a more relaxed, quieter, deeper and loving kind of way: check.

Taken literally, I am smack bang in the middle of where I wanted to be. Metaphorically, of course I would rather spend my birthday differently. Anywhere but a bedroom on a sunny afternoon.

Still… Ireland. Dublin. Clonsilla. Home. Bed. Sunglasses on while writing this. Painkillers à gogo. Toothpicks keeping my eyes open. Sort of.

Life’s good.

The definition of my life is, ‘My body, my rules’, and as William Shakespeare once wrote, ‘This above all: to thine own self be true.’ Know yourself, be true to yourself, and know what you want to happen with your physical being. Although the latter seemed somewhat different lately with a marathon run of one medical appointment after another for about six weeks, I started to feel like a live donor, as if I was outsourcing my body to medical science.

Life’s good, but keeping brain atrophy, demyelination and neurodegernation at bay, is no mean feat. What makes it difficult is that, unless you have MRI scans of your brain and spinal cord every week, you don’t have a clear picture of what is happening.

I refuse to give in to my physical health’s constant demand for superiority, though, but that need seems insatiable. If my whole MS-tale can be one of caution so, I would like you reading this to start listening carefully to what your body is telling you. If it yells, ‘Stop!’ listen and take your foot off the pedal for a while, rest, relax and sleep whenever if need be. Don’t hit the breaks when it’s too late, in hospital, or faced with a chronic illness yourself.

Relationship dynamics are one thing, the dynamic between you and your chronic illness another thing altogether. It requires as much time and dedication caring about it. For that reason and for the first time in years, I had to decide to spend my birthday in bed, and under the duvet. There have been too many days and nights the last few months where illustrious physical aches and pains have kept me up all night; while steady energy levels have been missing from my physical being altogether.

As I enter a new year with hopefully less physical pain, more energy and with as much writing I can possibly fit into a year to keep me sane, it’s good to keep reminding myself that despite odd, nasty hiccups thrown my way, it’s really just all about carpe diem.

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Image BillieAbout Willeke

Neurologically challenged by MS and personally by her will to succeed, Willeke is a disability awareness advocate seeking to improve neurological services in Ireland. By highlighting difficult issues that come with a MS diagnosis, she hopes her words and tenacity can bring justice to people most in need of a modern, inclusive healthcare system that looks after every aspect of life.

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16 thoughts on “Older, and dafter too!

    1. Summer duvet :) It was about 20°C, which to me it way too hot already. Funny thing though is that when I am really tired, I feel cold all over. Was happy to spend it under the duvet so :D

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  1. Zoveel moed, positiviteit, talent…, ik lees steeds je wijze woorden met veel bewondering…, respect meiske voor wie je bent en voor alles waar je voor staat! xxx

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  2. Hey ! Yippee, Happy Birthday ! you know, every time I read your blog the same thought occurs… “She is a Lucky Girl” I think I know why… your attitude, your honesty, your intelligence, your perceptions, the way your mind puts things together. your sensitivity…. should I stop ? Keep it up, you are a great model for all of us. Have an outstanding year ahead.. surprise yourself ! and in closing…..Thanks. Oh by the way… your photo resembles Isabella Rossellini… to me.

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    1. Oh my god, so much praise! Thanks for your confidence in me, I try to be the best person I can be every day, and with yours and everyone else’s support, I hope I can continue to be. And Isabella Rossellini? Oooh my, totally flattered! :) <3

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  3. Hope you are feeling great :) And thanks for the link up :D
    This is the first time I am here. I like it and as major in biotechnology I know what it is to have MS. So, yeah, in just one post I have come to admire your will power. keep going :)

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